COMFORT ZONE? WHO IS SHE?
As someone, that is always behind the camera, I take pride in saying that my main focus is making all my subjects feel comfortable and seen. That's how I know the best outcome gets created. Over the last year or two, I noticed that I myself am not too comfortable in front of the lens. Which you'd think is pretty weird. Considering I always jump in next to models to show them the poses I am envisioning - no matter how awkward they may seem.
I can't explain why, but the fact that I am so uncomfortable is quite literally enraging me. Insert the little red emotion from the pixar movie “Inside Out”. The rage about that is something I've been thinking about for a while. WHY am I feeling that way when I know what I want to capture or what poses work for me and what poses don't? And the cause of this is a real show stopper...
Say Hello to my holy - or shall we say - cursed trinity: perfectionism, imposter syndrome & fear of creative failure!
A fun mixture, I know! But I am sick and tired. How do we tackle this big elephant in the room? Taking Self-Portraits is the first solution. Who could've thought it's that easy?
Last year, I had this idea of challenging myself to a monthly self portrait session. Guess what? I didn't follow through with it and made excuses.This year, I not only want to tackle my discomfort, buuut I also want to use this opportunity to get more creative with my photography. Try out a few things I haven't, and see where my imagination can take me.Challenge of the year: one self-portrait a month.
(Additionally and secretly tackling the problem of not having professional photos of myself, haha).
Will be sharing the January outcome soon. Until then: enjoy my last portrait session.
